I feel like I am coming down with something. I napped again after school. I sleep too soundly now, like a cloud...a quick, instant snooze that feels like a long blink..and before I know it, I have to get up to do homework....or watch television. ;p

It is Mark B's birthday...well it was yesterday but they are getting together tomorrow for it. I am not sure I want to go. Instead of 3 exams next week, Rav has successfully persuaded everyone to move it to the monday of Spring Break, and as long as everyone (every single one) of us agrees, the instructor will let us do that.

I don't feel like studying for anything. I am tired and weak and sleeping funny, waking early and napping after school, then staying up late doing my work. It is 11 o'clock again.

this blog has been bookmarked and I have not been able to put it away. I readup on her last two months, and I agree with her American Idol reviews all the way. I wonder why she hasn't posted about the results on wednesday?

She writes about raising her son and Christianity and how she reacts to disappointment, and how she hopes her friends / sisters take her advice because she knows where they've been. I agree with all of that...disappointment.. I wrote in our newly founded johndoe forums, how the worst feeling on earth was when someone you thought you could count on disappoints you. ..Because it makes you question your judgement, moral and character. And all the other scales of "truth". What is truth, anyway.

And people that ask for advice (ahem my cousin) but do not take it. They are not asking anyways, really. They simply call to whine and lessen their guilt by pouring it out on you. They want you to agree with what they think they are doing "right", to justify their guilty pleasures, their unclean, impure thoughts. And even when you tell them what you really think, They will still do what they want to do.

*sigh*

Man that Jerry is really a JERK. we usually sit around the same area in class, and today he was sitting beside me. So Anne's handout comes by, and I accidently brush by his hand with mine while reaching for the handout. And then he says, "Your hand is so rough."

"it's like crocodile skin."

It took me about five seconds to recoil, roll my eyes and say, "shut up." Weakly.

He still goes at it. "it's like...turtle shell." And at lunch, "no...like elephant skin."

It embarassed me so much that I reached for my skin lotion and applied some right away.

On a side note, I thought it was so *cute* that Mark told me the other day how when we first started going out, he'd apply hand lotion before he picked me up all the time. hehe. awwww.

I gave my cousin shit yesterday. She is still underage for licquor, but was going on a weekend graduation trip and wanted me to buy her and her friends booze to take along. Mind you, she SMS'd me while I was at school. Ok. Short notice, but that's ok. Fine. I got the message in the morning, made a mental note to message or call her back when I was off school.

Near the end of my last class, I did..but noticed that there was another message in VM. I check it, it's some shit of her going off to the likes of "fuck, well you haven't called or messaged me back, blah blahbalh".

Whoa. ok....here you are asking ME for a FAVOUR and you have the AUDACITY to speak to me in that manner? I was PISHED OFF. I did not call her back. Hell if she wanted something done, SHE would have to call ME, not the other way around.

Five o clock rolls around, five thirty...five fifty. My conscience got to me so I borrowed the car to go to the liquor store and to Winners for some bargains. I made it in to the licquor store with like five minutes to spare. And she calls me THEN. Like all normal-like.

So very civil-like, I interrupt her. "I really do NOT appreciate your leaving messages like that on my phone."

She (very quickly, coy): oh i'm SORRY. I meant it as a joke..

ME: "Right. Like it's FUNNY and you know what, don't even apologize if it doesn't even mean anything."

God. She has another thing coming to her if she thinks she can walk away like that. I've had enough of that attitude. It's disrespectful and rude the way she speaks to everyone in the family. Like everyone is ALIVE just so we can bow to her and kiss her feet or something.

Well Marky's birthday is next week. Hopefully the ELEX exam will be pushed forward so I can actually see him on his birthday? Incidentally, his was born on his mother's birthday too... poor mark's mum. lol.

*sigh*.