We talked for three hours on the phone, me crying and weeping and telling him how i felt....he began crying as well. He never cries.....and he was crying. i wasn't going to tell him that i had thought of breaking up with him..but he asked. and i told.

he left me to my homework, but i continued to lay in bed crying, crying until i fell asleep. i woke up several times through the night and then one last time at five o'clock. It is now 7:21. My eyes are swollen and i do not want to go to school. I want to run over to him and tell him what i feel. . . .how wrong i feel. how i can't do this now..but i won't. i can't. he'd be angry that i'd missed school for him.

he's going to call me later tonight, after work, tell me more.

i don't know how i'm going to make it through this day.