I don't know why i'm bothering to write right now. Perhaps I am running on cruise control and I know this is very very very important, but another part of me knows I am running out of time.

I have to be at the church in two hours. I woke up an hour ago. I slept at 3 a.m. this morning after tidying up a little. It still looks like shit. . .They asked me yesterday evening if they could use my house for the pictures if it was raining. I said yes, but didn't think of anywhere in my house that was exceptionally picturesque. I mean...we have the banister and the foyer area is large enough to fit the wedding party and family, and a fireplace...but it's all very poorly lit.

My two babies are getting married. Funny that i say this, since they're both older than me by a month.

How do I explain my feelings? anxiety, anticipation.. nervous, excited...some disbelief as well. This day has come so fast. too fast.